Yer didnt think anyone cared, or would even answer. guess im just worthless at the moment.

everyone thinks im happy all the time and everything amazingly good cause i potently have a relationship coming. But do you know what nothings fucking right atm i feel like locking myself in a box and not coming out for days. I hate it, you all think i have this big ball of confidence but really, when it comes to relationships theres no confidence at all and i feel like ive blown it. if you was a 20 yr old and you could pick between a friend that you havent seen in 5 years thats also 20 or a 17 yr old you meet a year ago, have alot in common and have been none stop talking for 3 months, really what one you you choose? and i dont want people says me just cause they want to make me feel better, im sorry but i want the truth whether i can handle it or not.  Yer we’re cute and all.

just to let you all know i hide a lot behind a smile and a lot more behind smiles, done it for years. tbh i’m hardly ever happy anymore and i’m a fucking handful.